I didn’t know how to deal with it… so I tried not to feel it at all.

In this episode of Episodes of Life, Daniel opens up about the period where everything started to spiral.

The nights out that went too far. The drinking, the drugs, the moments he doesn’t fully remember and the ones he wishes he could forget.

This is the part of grief that doesn’t always get talked about. Not the sadness, but the escape. The self-destruction. The point where you stop caring what happens to you.

Daniel shares what it was really like during that time, becoming someone his friends had to look after, pushing things too far again and again, and trying to shut his mind off any way he could.

Until something forced it to stop.

This episode also explores the unexpected turning point when everything slowed down, and for the first time, he had to actually sit with what he’d been avoiding.

In this episode:

• Using alcohol and drugs to numb the pain
• Losing control and not knowing when to stop
• The impact it had on friendships and family
• Moments of regret that still stick
• The turning point that forced everything to slow down

If you’ve ever tried to outrun what you’re feeling…
If you’ve ever gone too far just to switch your mind off…
If you’ve ever looked back and not recognized yourself…

You’ll understand this one.

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