Yesterday was December 4. While walking toward the shore in the late afternoon, I passed by a seafood restaurant. Sheets of paper were spread across the tables, and on those papers I heard the crack of shells, small snapping sounds, and the strange seriousness with which people were cleaning crabs. It felt almost like a ritual. My eyes caught on one detail the claws of the crabs. In nature they look threatening, armored by their shells, defending themselves with those sharp claws. Yet here they were, breaking helplessly between two human fingers. On one side a creature that appears strong, on the other a human finger that appears weak. And the balance of power was nothing like I imagined. I paused for a moment. There was a strange lesson hidden inside that scene Strength is not always what it looks like from the outside. Sometimes a claw is not enough to defend yourself. And sometimes a finger is far more determined and far more precise than you expect. The crab’s claws reminded me of the ways humans defend themselves. We build shells, wear armor, sharpen our edges so no one can hurt us. But eventually there comes a moment when even the smallest touch can shatter us completely. Maybe the question is not who is stronger but who is more persistent, more prepared, more hungry. At nature’s table and at life’s table the result is the same It is not the hardness of your shell that matters. It is the determination of what reaches inside it. December 4 made me realize this A person is not defeated by their strong side, but by the fragile place they ignore. When I returned home in the evening, I opened my history notebook as I always do. I looked at the page and asked myself, What happened on December 4? At the top of the page there was a single line: December 4, 1991 – Pan Am declared bankruptcy. I paused for a moment. Pan Am had once been the strongest name in the sky. A giant brand that flew to every corner of the world, appearing untouchable. Yet in the end it shattered like a claw snapping under pressure. It was exactly like the scene I had watched earlier that day: The crab that looked strong, breaking apart between fingers that looked weak. There was a similar lesson in the fall of Pan Am. Everything that appears powerful depends on a fragile inner balance. An economy trembles, a decision is delayed, competition rises, and the giant collapses like a paper table. In that moment I understood something: No one in life is truly untouchable. Not a crab, not a person, not an empire. What destroys us is rarely the great blows from the outside. It is the small weaknesses inside us that we never notice. December 4 made me think this: If you have claws you may look strong, but if your inner balance is fragile even the weakest finger can open you. And at the end of the day I wrote to myself: A person is defeated not by their strong side, but by the weakness they refuse to see. Yesterday was a heavy day for the shareholders of Pan Am, but it was a light one for me. Because I was only thinking about the fragility of a crab, while they were carrying the collapse of an empire on their shoulders.

Yesterday was December 3rd. When I woke up in the morning, there was nothing inside me. No excitement, no heaviness, no meaning… As if life had switched itself to “empty” for the day. I was carrying myself like a guest in my own day. “I won’t get a story out of today,” I thought. “This day isn’t even worth writing about.” Then suddenly, a friend came by. The conversation started with something as simple as the weather. And then, out of nowhere, a sentence fell from his mouth: “I cheated on my spouse.” In an instant, the emptiness of the day cracked open. An ordinary afternoon opened a door into one of the darkest corners of human nature. At first, I felt sadness not for him, but for the deep, invisible wounds people open inside themselves… For the collapse of trust, the exhaustion of love, for those shadowy places a person cannot explain even to themselves. But then sadness gave way to curiosity: Why? Why does someone betray the person they claim to love? Why does a person run from the very one they want to belong to, searching for themselves inside the body of a stranger? Slowly, an answer formed in my mind: Sometimes a person does not betray their partner, they betray their own emptiness. Sometimes they cheat not on the person they love, but on the disappointment they carry inside themselves. And sometimes, they start seeing in someone else a version of the partner they wish they had. Maybe fidelity is not the real issue. Maybe the truth is this: A person projects the missing part of their partner onto someone else’s face and clings to that illusion. Human emotions are not governed by morality as much as we pretend. Most of the time they are ruled by lack, by emptiness, by feelings that were completed in the wrong places. And that ordinary day suddenly made me realize: People do not get lost because they betray they get lost because something inside them remains unfinished. And everyone who feels incomplete believes they will be completed in someone else. Yesterday, December 3rd, was so painfully ordinary… I thought I wouldn’t have a single word to say. But a day that began in silence suddenly spiraled into the darkest chambers of human psychology. Evening came, and as always, I opened my history notebook. I looked up: “What happened on December 3?” At the top of the page, one event stood out: December 3, 1967 – The first human heart transplant in the world was performed. Christiaan Barnard removed a failing heart from a human body and replaced it with a new one. A turning point in the history of medicine. But while reading that line, another thought crossed my mind: Human beings have always known how to replace their hearts we’ve only recently learned how to do it in a medical sense. Some people change a heart on an operating table, while others change it silently, hidden inside the folds of a relationship. A heart grows old, gets tired, decays. Then suddenly someone appears and awakens places inside you that haven’t moved in years.

Yesterday was December 2.

The moment I woke up, there was a strange tremor inside me. It felt as if I was not rising from a bed, but emerging out of a darkness. For an instant I thought I was back in a womb; then I sensed that silent void pushing me outward, toward another realm. It felt as if I were being born. Familiar and ancient, like a memory from before memory.

This thought stayed with me the entire day.

A baby in the womb lives inside its own universe; for it, everything is contained there. A baby believes the womb is the whole cosmos. That dark shelter is its sky, a cosmic tent with walls that shimmer like distant stars. The cord is a channel carrying light and nourishment from the center of that universe. If a baby could speak and ask what happens after death, who could explain to it that it will be born? When its tiny world collapses, how could it know that a wider world is waiting?

Maybe we too are inside such a riddle. Maybe birth is the death of one universe, and death is the birth of another. Maybe nothing ends; it simply changes places.

This thought suddenly softened the fear from the morning nightmare. What frightened me was not dying. It was stepping into what I could not yet see.

In the evening, as always, I opened my history notebook. What had happened on December 2?

On December 2, 1804, Napoleon crowned himself. Instead of taking the crown from the hands of the pope, he placed it on his own head. That day he told the entire world a simple message: I create myself.

But yesterday I understood something: A person may try to shape themselves however they wish, yet between the place they are born and the place they will be born again, they walk through the same field of uncertainty.

Napoleon did not choose his birth, nor do we choose our end.

Power is sometimes nothing more than a game, a mirage that makes us forget the borders of fate.

December 2 made me think this: Perhaps none of us is the ruler of our own story. We all move toward an unseen birth. And life is only a bridge swinging between these two beginnings.

Last night I whispered to myself:

Maybe today I was being born again. Maybe a dark womb inside me was closing, and without realizing it I was preparing for the light of another world.

Yesterday’s story was heavy. But what it made me feel was incredibly light: Every human is born many times throughout life. And every birth begins with darkness.

Yesterday was November 28, 2025.

During my lunch break, I walked to that hotel again. Lately it feels like a small escape point for me a quiet place where I can slip out of the rhythm of the city and return to my own. And of course, the real reason: the latte the barista makes.

He prepares it as if he pours not just coffee into the cup, but a little attention, a little character. The foam is soft, the milk balanced, and even the smell carries the calm of a day that refuses to rush. Sometimes I think it’s not the coffee I’m attached to, but the connection to something touched by another human being.

I used to be very sensitive to milk as a child; my stomach reacted instantly. So latte was a forbidden drink for a long time. But recently, that old discomfort vanished. Maybe my body changed, maybe I did… who knows. In short, latte has become my new favorite.

And the barista… Every time, using the same ingredients, he creates something different. When he’s not there, I don’t even bother ordering; I just wave from the door and leave.

Over time, a strange signal grew between us: When I see him, I ask with a small look, “Are you here today?” He lifts his head as if to say, “The usual?” And I nod. The taste of the coffee becomes clear even before it’s made.

While thinking about all this, I looked up what happened on November 28 in history.

On November 28, 1958, Chad, Congo, and Gabon declared independence within the French Community.

On paper, it looks like a political event nothing more. But it actually tells a deeper, more human story:

The same land, the same people, the same sun, the same sky… Yet when the owner of the story changes, destiny changes. When a nation gains the right to shape itself, the same materials transform into a completely different future.

At that moment, I thought about the barista. The same coffee beans, the same milk, the same machine… But when the hand changes, everything changes.

Maybe that’s the secret of life: The materials remain the same, but when the person changes, the whole world changes.

Maybe that’s why I love that coffee. Not because of the milk… but because of the human behind it. Because a little care poured into a cup has a way of pouring into a heart too.

Yesterday’s story was just a latte, perhaps. But its meaning lasted much longer than the drink.

And by the end of the day, I realized: The taste of the coffee was richer than the day itself.

Yesterday was December 1. There was a heaviness in me that I could not fully name. It was neither sadness nor anger. It felt as if my mind wanted to say something but could not finish its own sentence.

Inside that heaviness, I forced myself to think. For some time I had been aware of a simple truth: I am a philosophy writer who has never sold a single book.

Accepting this brings both a strange peace and a strange pain. It is not easy for a person to look at themselves and realize that, despite all their effort, something is still missing. But yesterday, as I walked around that missing piece, something became clear.

I should have been a novelist. I should have created characters, stepped into them, traveled with their sorrows and their hopes. This was not something I understood for the first time yesterday. I had made that decision years ago. But yesterday was the first time the full weight of that decision settled into place inside me.

In my previous life I had a respected and successful profession. People looked at that identity and assumed everything was in order. But I had been standing at the door of another inner calling for a long time. The urge to meet new characters slowly pushed me out of the narrow space I was living in.

So I left that profession while I was still at the peak of it. I left my country. I came to another land to work as a laborer. Everyone who heard this was shocked; some refused to believe it. To them it was one of the greatest acts of madness a person could choose.

For me, it was the revolution my story needed.

Here, where I live now, I meet people from all over the world. Every nation, every language, every destiny. I build friendships especially with those who come from the narrow, unseen corners of society. They speak about their lives, and even though I do not take notes, everything gathers inside me.

But this is where fate played its hand.

In my homeland, the things I had entrusted to others were betrayed. People I trusted old friends, my circle, even my own family revealed darker faces. Suddenly my order collapsed. My future darkened. My finances crumbled. Every ground I trusted was pulled from beneath my feet.

My body could not carry the weight of it either. In recent years even the smallest stress, the tiniest fork in the road, dragged me into hospital rooms for days. Sometimes even walking felt heavy for my body.

During those moments I thought endlessly:

Is this path I chose trying to destroy me?

But yesterday something struck me with clarity.

No. This path is not killing me. It is fulfilling its purpose.

I set out to study characters. To observe them, to understand them from a distance. But the game of life pulled me inside. I became the very man of the things I once wanted to write.

I did not struggle to become a character; life itself turned me into one.

As I carried this thought, a sentence from years ago echoed in my mind words from a girl I once loved. Poetry is the gift of the poor, she had said.

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Yesterday was November 30, 2025.

While walking yesterday, I noticed a simple yet strange truth about myself. I have begun to enjoy taking different paths.

In the past I did not like new routes. A street I walked for the first time always felt longer, as if time stretched a little and my steps sank into that stretch. When I turned into an unfamiliar road, the distance widened, corners drifted farther away, and every turn felt uncertain. My mind collected every detail as if it were learning the world from the beginning, and the road itself grew heavy.

But this year something changed.

Now I like new paths.

Because I finally understood the small illusion the mind creates.

When you walk to a place for the first time, your mind records everything. Buildings, colors, shadows, sounds. Since all of it is new, the distance expands.

But on the way back, the same road suddenly shortens. It feels as if the world folds slightly, as if the distance draws itself inward, and your steps become lighter.

Every first journey is actually two journeys. Going there feels long. Returning feels short.

One day I realized I could play with this. I could use the illusion.

I take the long route on the way there, walking with awareness, letting the road stretch time and letting that stretch change me.

And on the way back, I choose the short route, as if folding the world and placing it quietly into my pocket.

Maybe this is why new paths no longer unsettle me.

I enjoy watching how time bends under my steps. New roads lengthen the day. Familiar ones gather it back together.

And somewhere between those two distances, I feel myself changing as well.

Yesterday I left home choosing the long route on purpose. I turned into unfamiliar streets, walked under buildings I had never noticed before. With every step I felt that familiar restlessness of the mind, recording everything, placing its quiet markers on every detail.

Of course it felt long. Longer than it needed to. But that length no longer bothers me. It feels as if the road stretching out is simply time opening itself to me.

Then on the way back, the moment I stepped onto a familiar street, the road folded. The world shortened itself without a sound. I walked with the same steps, but inside a different kind of time.

For a moment I paused and thought:

Maybe people measure their lives wrong. Things feel long only because they are new, not because they are difficult.

And the things that feel short are not easy; They are simply known.

Sometimes we interpret our own story incorrectly. What we call difficult is often just unfamiliar. What we call easy is merely something we have already met.

It was strange, but beautiful, to have a road teach me this for a moment.

When I returned home in the evening, out of habit I opened my history notebook.

What had happened on November 30?

I found this:

November 30, 1872 Jules Verne published Around the World in Eighty Days.

A journey around the world, through distances, through time, through memory.

A person traveling the globe but also discovering the hidden routes within themselves.

Suddenly what I had thought during the walk made sense:

Every person undertakes their own kind of circumnavigation. Every new path stretches the mind, every familiar one gathers it back, and without noticing, we redraw the map inside us.

November 30 taught me this:

The length of a road is measured not by your steps, but by your familiarity with it. When you dare to face the new, the world expands. When you return to what is known, the world contracts. And both movements give something to a person.

Yesterday’s story was just a walk. But what it made me feel was a quiet lesson in how the mind shapes every road it travels.

November 29, 2025.A morning filled with white signs a silent white cat, impossible white blossoms, reflections that all echoed the same color.What seemed like a strange aesthetic symmetry gradually unfolded into something deeper: a reminder of how reality often hides its sharpest truths behind flawless surfaces.Later, the date revealed the memory of the Sand Creek Massacre of 1864 a day when whiteness did not mean purity, but blindness and erasure.This episode is a journey through subtle signals, simulation like patterns, and the unsettling truth that perfection sometimes conceals the heaviest stories beneath it.

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