In this vulnerable and faith-filled episode of Curious for Christ, I sit down again with Gordon Ferguson—author, teacher, and spiritual leader with over 50 years in ministry. You may remember him from our most listened-to episode on God’s view of women.

This time, we explore his most personal book: God and Cancer. It’s a raw and honest conversation about mortality—not to stir fear, but to awaken faith, clarity, and purpose.

We discuss:

• Why we avoid death—and why we must face it

• How illness and aging sharpen spiritual focus

• The practical wisdom of preparing for our departure

• God’s power over death—and what it means for life now

• Gordon’s transformation through cancer and aging

• Stories from real estate and lessons from The Obstacle Is the Way

Key Quotes:

Call to Action – from Christine Caine:

• God, what’s on Your heart today?

• How do You want me to participate in your plans today?

• What need do You want to meet through me?

Scriptures to Reflect On:

• John 10:10 – Life to the full

• Romans 8:28 – All things for good

• 2 Timothy 1:10 – Christ destroyed death

Books Mentioned:

God and Cancer & The Bible and Women by G. Ferguson, An Aging Grace by Jeanie Shaw and Friends, The Obstacle Is the Way by R. Holiday

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Have you ever looked around and felt like you didn’t belong—even in spaces where you’ve shown up faithfully? In this heartfelt and vulnerable episode, I share my personal journey of wrestling with comparison, grief, delayed dreams, and the quiet question many of us ask:
“Why would God show me what I’ll never have?”

Through real-life reflection and biblical insight, I explore how God lovingly reveals the places in us that still need healing—not to punish us, but to draw us closer to His love. Whether you’re navigating delayed dreams, childhood wounds, or that ache to feel truly seen and supported, this episode is for you.

You are not too late. You are not too broken. And you are not disqualified.

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Scriptures Referenced:

Psalm 139:1–2 (NIV)
You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

Isaiah 61:3 (NIV)
…and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes,
the oil of joy instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.

John 4:29 (NIV)
“Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did.
Could this be the Messiah?”

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In This Episode, You’ll Hear:
• A deeply personal story of feeling unseen and out of place in church
• The cost of walking away from a life of worldly success to follow Christ
• Honest reflections on grief, loss, and spiritual disappointment
• A healing perspective on comparison and unmet desires
• God’s invitation to deeper love and healing
• A prayer for anyone feeling like an outsider in their own story

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Reflection Question:
What is God showing you—not to hurt you, but to heal you?

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Take This With You:
“God is not showing you what you’ll never have. He’s showing you where you still need to be loved.”

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In this special Easter episode, we take a sacred pause to reflect on the three most powerful days in human history: Good Friday, Silent Saturday, and Resurrection Sunday.

Whether you’re in a season of loss, waiting, or longing for breakthrough—this episode is for you.

We explore what it means to let go, be still, and receive the resurrection life Jesus offers—not just for this life, but for eternity. It’s an invitation to remember, to repent, to receive the Holy Spirit, and to be made new.

Scripture References:
• Luke 23:44–46 (NIV) – Jesus’ final breath on the cross
• John 20:19 – The fear and silence of Saturday
• Luke 24:1–6 (NIV) – The resurrection: “He is not here; He has risen!”
• Acts 2:36–38 – Peter’s call to repent and be baptized
• John 3:5 – “No one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.”
• Matthew 11:28 – “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened…”
• Revelation 21:4 – “He will wipe every tear from their eyes…”

Go Deeper – Recommended Episodes:
• Episode 86 – Healing: How to Release Stored Emotions and Find Renewal with God
Perfect for your Saturday season—this episode guides you through emotional release and healing with God.
• Episode 89 – Wrestling for the New to Come
Because new life is often born out of struggle. This one’s for those in transition.
• Episode 90 – Trusting God’s Timing
For when you’re tired of striving and just want to learn how to receive.

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In this episode of Curious for Christ, we sit down with Dr. Gary Lawrence, affectionately known as Dr. G, to discuss the hidden impact of trauma on our relationships and emotional well-being—and the hope we find in Jesus for healing. Dr. G, author of Rejection Junkies, shares his insights into how wounds from our past affect how we can experience freedom and restoration through God’s love, truth, and guidance.

Topics discussed:
• The impact of past trauma on our relationships and emotional health
• The root of bitterness and how it can manifest in our lives, creating emotional barriers and hindering healing or transformation!
• Dr. G’s four-step process to emotional freedom: Identify, Isolate, Eliminate, and Equip
• The importance of understanding our identity in Christ and embracing healing
• How God’s love is the key to overcoming past pain and living in the fullness of joy and peace He intends for us

Scriptures mentioned in the episode:
• Galatians 5:22-23 – “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.”
• Proverbs 18:14 – “The human spirit can endure a sick body, but who can bear a crushed spirit?”
• 1 John 4:13 – “Hereby know we that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit.”

Resources:
• Learn more about Dr. G and take the quiz: www.rejectionjunkies.com

Action Steps:
• Reflect on the areas of your life where past wounds may still be affecting your present relationships.
• Embrace the four-step process Dr. G shared to identify, isolate, eliminate, and equip yourself with the tools to heal.
• Dive deeper into the Scriptures mentioned, and ask the Lord to reveal any areas where you may need healing or restoration.

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Welcome back to Curious for Christ! Trusting God’s timing is one of the biggest challenges in our faith journey. Why does waiting feel so hard? And how do we shift from frustration to peace? Today, I’m sharing three key steps to help you trust God’s process with confidence.

3 Steps to Trusting God’s Timing

1. Release Control – Trust begins when we surrender our expectations and let go of the need to understand everything. God’s plan is higher than ours (Proverbs 3:5-6, Isaiah 55:8-9).
2. Embrace the Waiting – The waiting season is not wasted; it’s preparation. Instead of asking when, focus on who God is shaping you to become (Jeremiah 17:6-8, Lamentations 3:22-23).
3. Walk in Faith, Not Fear – Trusting God’s timing doesn’t mean doing nothing. It means stepping forward in faith, even without all the answers (Psalm 37:5, Matthew 17:20, Joshua 1:9).

Scriptures Shared in This Episode

• Proverbs 3:5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
• Isaiah 55:8-9 – God’s ways and thoughts are higher than ours.
• Galatians 5:1 – Christ has set us free—trusting Him leads to true freedom.
• Jeremiah 17:6-8 – Those who trust in the Lord flourish, even in difficult seasons.
• Lamentations 3:22-23 – God’s mercies are new every morning.
• Psalm 37:5 – Commit your way to the Lord, trust Him, and He will act.
• Matthew 17:20 – Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains.
• Hebrews 11:6 – Without faith, it is impossible to please God.
• Joshua 1:9 – Be strong and courageous; the Lord is with you wherever you go.

Final Encouragement

If you’re struggling with God’s timing, know that you’re not alone. The process takes time, but God’s plan is always perfect. Have you ever looked back and realized He was working all along? I’d love to hear your thoughts!

If this episode encouraged you, share it with a friend and leave a review. Until next time—keep trusting, keep seeking, and keep walking in faith!

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In today’s episode, we’re diving into the process of becoming—the ongoing transformation that happens as we step into who God created us to be. It’s not always a smooth journey. In fact, it often involves struggle, uncertainty, and deep wrestling with our identity, our past, and even with God Himself.

Through my personal story and the powerful biblical account of Jacob wrestling with God, we’ll explore what it means to be refined through struggle and step into the identity God has for us. If you’ve ever felt like you’re stuck in between who you were and who you’re called to be, this episode is for you.

What You’ll Learn in This Episode:
• How struggles can actually be part of God’s refining process
• Why wrestling with God isn’t about resistance—it’s about transformation
• Lessons from Jacob’s encounter with God in Genesis 32
• Practical steps to step into your God-given identity
• How surrendering to God doesn’t mean losing—it means becoming

Key Scriptures to Reflect On:
• Genesis 32:22-32 – Jacob’s wrestling with God and his transformation into Israel
• Romans 12:2 – The renewal of our minds as part of our transformation
• 2 Corinthians 5:17 – Stepping into our new identity in Christ
• Psalm 46:10 – The importance of stillness in hearing God’s voice
• Romans 5:3-4 – How struggles shape our endurance, character, and hope

Practical Next Steps for Your Journey:
1. Acknowledge your emotions and bring them to God (1 Peter 5:7)
2. Renew your mind daily with Scripture (Romans 12:2)
3. Surrender your struggles and trust the process (Matthew 11:28)
4. Create moments of stillness to hear God’s voice (Psalm 46:10)
5. Embrace the struggle as part of your transformation (Romans 5:3-4)
6. Keep seeking God through prayer and wisdom (1 Thessalonians 5:17)
7. Let go of your past and step into the new (2 Corinthians 5:17) - which also involves forgiving yourself in the process

Final Thoughts
Becoming who God created you to be is a lifelong process, not a one-time event. Like Jacob, we may walk away from our struggles with scars, but they are marks of transformation, not defeat. If you’re wrestling today, know that you are not alone—God is with you, shaping you, and preparing you for what’s ahead.

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Until next time, stay curious, stay faithful, and keep wrestling toward who God has called you to be.

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Have you ever experienced hurt within the church or struggled with faith because of past wounds? You’re not alone. In this episode of Curious for Christ, we dive into a powerful conversation about spiritual trauma, healing from church hurt, and rediscovering a thriving relationship with God.

Dr. Sean St Jean shares deep insights on:
• The difference between submission and subjugation in faith
• How to heal from past church wounds without losing your relationship with God
• The importance of honest, unfiltered prayer—even when you’re struggling
• Why mature love in Christ is deeper and stronger than the emotional highs of early faith
• How to build healthy, life-giving fellowship, even outside of traditional church settings

Bible Verses Mentioned:
• Psalm 88 – A raw, honest prayer of suffering and struggle
• Matthew 18:20 – “For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”
• 2 Timothy 2:19 – “Nevertheless, God’s solid foundation stands firm, sealed with this inscription: ‘The Lord knows those who are his.’”
• Romans 5:3-5 – “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”
• James 1:2-4 – “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.”

Resources & Links Mentioned:
• Eremos Ministry Website – Explore courses and resources on healing and spiritual growth
• Eremos Ministry YouTube Channel – Weekly content on faith, healing, and ministry
• Spiritual Trauma: A Guide for Healing Your Heart from Church Hurts – Get the Book Here
• Listen to my Previous Podcast Episode with Christy & Joe Peed on how the Biblical Sabbath brings Healing and Renewal in times of stress or burnout

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Love in Christ,

Alexandra

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Sometimes, we feel overwhelmed when things aren’t going as expected, and we struggle to understand what God is doing. But interestingly, overwhelm can also arise from good things happening. The truth is, everything God gives us is good—even if we don’t always see it that way.

Today, I am exploring this idea: Sometimes, God answers our prayers, but we still don’t experience peace...

What You’ll Learn in Today’s Episode:
• How to embrace God’s blessings without feeling overwhelmed
• The difference between trusting your fears vs. trusting in God’s peace
• The importance of taking things one step at a time with God’s guidance

In This Episode, We Discuss:
• Proverbs 10:22: God’s blessings bring richness without sorrow
• Matthew 6:34: Trust God with today, and don’t worry about tomorrow
• Psalm 127:1: You don’t have to carry everything alone—God builds the house

3 Easy Steps to Trust God When You Feel Overwhelmed:

- Ask God, “What is today’s assignment?”

- Speak truth when fear creeps in.

- End each day with gratitude – “Lord, thank You for today. I trust You with tomorrow.”

Scriptures Mentioned:
• Proverbs 10:22 – “The blessing of the Lord makes rich, and He adds no sorrow with it.”
• Matthew 6:34 – “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
• Psalm 127:1 – “Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain.”
• Proverbs 16:9 – “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”
• Deuteronomy 31:8 – “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you.”
• Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

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