Ready for the real and the raw? Ready for something different? I'm sharing my most embarrassing stories and the messy reality of starting over. It's all about personal growth and facing those awkward moments!This will be the most human thing I've ever published on YouTube. Thank you for being here! Please like, subscribe and comment!FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON TIKTOK: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON X: calwaymanWATCH MY FILM: HEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFlsTIMESTAMPS: 00:00:00 – The Most Embarrassing Episode 😳Calvin sets the stage: why he’s posting this raw, unfiltered video despite fear.00:02:15 – Embracing Full Transparency 🪞Why vulnerability and honesty are essential for real connection.00:04:16 – Growing Up in a Cult ⛪️Introduction to Calvin’s upbringing in fundamentalist Mormonism, with 44 siblings and strict control.00:07:19 – Quitting My Day Job 💼🚪Taking the leap into full-time content creation and the financial struggles that followed.00:10:05 – $110,000 in Debt 💳Coming clean about the financial weight of chasing the dream.00:11:21 – Why I’m Risking Everything 🎲Tying the YouTube plunge back to leaving the religion and fighting for freedom.00:15:20 – The Crack in My Beliefs 🪨⚡️College, philosophy, and the moment Plato’s Cave made Calvin question everything.00:20:11 – Facing Eternal Damnation 🔥The terrifying stakes of leaving fundamentalist Mormonism.00:27:19 – Choosing My Own Life 🛤️Why Calvin walked away from an arranged marriage, family expectations, and certainty.00:33:24 – Freedom vs. Security 🕊️🔒Struggles with money, authenticity, and refusing to go back to a “safe” job.00:39:55 – Being a Dad From Afar 👨‍👧‍👦The challenges of raising kids while living in New York, including a bittersweet story about a loose tooth.00:50:45 – Living With Doubt, Choosing Authenticity 🤔❤️How doubt lingers even after leaving, and why Calvin bets on authenticity as his security.00:59:01 – Looking Ahead 🚀What comes next: values, creative vision, and building a YouTube channel grounded in what’s real.

Welcome to Episode 18: two ex-Mormons hanging out—but don’t worry, it’s only mildly painful. I’m sitting down with my friend Spencer to untangle the often confusing world of Mormonism. Spencer grew up LDS (think: standard-issue Mormons), while I was raised FLDS (but not the Warren Jeffs one—seriously, calm down. Yes there are more than one. See, told you it was confusing).We’ll swap stories, compare notes, and probably realize we both had some pretty epic times singing Mormon songs. It’s part awkward, part eye-opening, and surprisingly funny. Join us as we laugh through the cringe, clear up some misconceptions, and maybe even learn a thing or two… or at least make you grateful for your own childhood.Follow me on Instagram!@calvinwaymanWATCH MY FILM: HEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFls