If you’re trying to conceive and finding the experience heavier than you expected — emotionally, mentally, and spiritually — this is for you.

In this first episode, I share my personal infertility story. While your journey may look different from mine, many of the burdens are shared: the repeated hope and disappointment, the constant mental load, the strain on faith, and the quiet grief that often goes unseen. I give the raw details about how trying to conceive affected my emotions, my sense of self, and my relationship with God — including the shock of discovering that becoming a mother wasn’t just ‘hard,’ but tangled with medical risk, closed adoption doors, and decisions that forced us to weigh life, loss, and faith all at once — and how infertility brought a deep wrestling that reshaped how I thought about faith, suffering, and hope in Christ.

My hope is that as you listen, you recognise your own experience reflected in this conversation. That the emotions you’re carrying make sense. That others have walked this road too. And that even in the heaviness of infertility, you are not alone. Lyndell xx ⭐️Leave a Review 💬If you found this episode hopeful or helpful, I'd be SO grateful if you'd leave one or two sentences about what this podcast has meant to you. Your words help others find the podcast, who are looking for support and encouragement while struggling to conceive. And in addition, words of affirmation are my love language, so hearing from you makes my day! Please leave a review on Apple Podcasts. On Spotify, you can follow the podcast to make sure you never miss an episode!