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This is Season 3, Episode 154: Holding Space in the Mess

Ever feel like you're teaching one thing but living another? This episode gets raw about what happens when the gap between who you say you are and who you actually are becomes impossible to ignore.

Sebastian shares his ninth year working with Ayahuasca at Yachaywasi Lodge in Peru, but this time, the healing center was falling apart, the water pump was broken, and nothing went according to plan.

Instead of the perfect retreat experience, he learned the most powerful lesson yet: holding space isn't about having everything perfect, it's about showing up anyway.

You'll hear about turning into the pig he butchered (yes, really), befriending a shark and a snake with fiery red eyes, reconnecting with his aunt who passed away just hours before his flight, and getting the ultimate reality check from plant medicine: "Your stuff works, Sebastian. Now prove it."

This is about what happens when you fall off your discipline for two months, gain a bunch of weight, throw your back out, and have to practice what you preach. It's about the difference between performing perfection and demonstrating the process of coming back to center.

If you've ever felt like a hypocrite, fallen off your habits, or wondered how to lead when your own life feels messy, this one's for you.