Hello, dear soul. If you are struggling with sadness, grief, anger, or deep loneliness this holiday season—especially because you've had to put up necessary boundaries with family—please know you are not alone. My heart is with you. It's okay to not feel "merry and bright" when you are dealing with real pain.

In this Christmas journal entry, I'm sharing my own experience of moving through the anger and hurt that comes from rejection and mistreatment. I also discuss my tendency as an INFP to idealize situations, and why self-love is the kindest thing you can do for yourself right now.

I see you, I hear you, and I’m sending you so much love. Hang in there.

XOXO,
Kate Harmony

📖 Journal Notes

0:00 Welcome to the Lightbearer's Library (A Message for the Lonely)
0:53 You Are Not Alone (Grief, Sadness, and Loneliness)
1:50 INFP Struggles: Idealism vs. Reality
3:19 Why Excusing Bad Behavior Hurts Your Self-Worth
4:45 Honoring Your Own Feelings: Why I'm Done Pretending
5:33 Dealing with Family Anger at Christmas
6:36 Processing Anger as a Stage of Grief
7:07 Self-Love: Protecting Yourself with Boundaries
7:49 Emotional Containment (The Plexiglass Analogy)
9:34 Hang In There, Dear Soul

🌿 About Kate Harmony 🌿

My main channel (Hack Music Theory) has over 250K subscribers and 10 million views. I've been a full-time YouTuber since 2017 and launched this personal channel (Lightbearer's Library) in 2025, where I'm making video versions of my journal entries.

Some of my favourite topics to talk about are practical philosophy, positive psychology, and personality type (I'm an INFP). But honestly, my journals contain counter-cultural thoughts about everything, so expect the unexpected! I also share practical ways I'm improving my mental health, with the hope that you might find them useful too.

I deleted all my social media accounts over 10 years ago, so I offer a loving perspective that's free from the divisive language commonly found in feeds nowadays.

If this sounds like your cup of tea, then I warmly welcome you into the Lightbearer's Library. Stay for a while, and please remember to subscribe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV2wps4NID9rrO08OuwZ5Lg?sub_confirmation=1