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  • Episode 20: Aftershocks

    Episode 20: Aftershocks
    2025/08/20
    After experimenting with meds, my heart was finally tamed — but the process was exhausting. Between Costco phone calls, side effects, and a doctor vacationing in Hawaii, life somehow stayed absurd. Even calm came with conditions.
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    13 分
  • Episode 19: Shock Wave

    Episode 19: Shock Wave
    2025/08/20
    Just when life was starting to feel normal again, it happened.A quiet night. A final slide rehearsal. And then—darkness.In this episode, I walk through the strange calm of Christmas 2020, the long wait for the COVID vaccine, a brief family escape to Lake Tahoe… and the moment my ICD fired for the first time. No drama, no collapse—just a silent jolt that saved my life. Again. This is the story of what happened when the heart doesn’t warn you. It just… goes. Until something brings it back.
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    14 分
  • Episode 18: Lockdown 2020

    Episode 18: Lockdown 2020
    2025/08/18
    The world shut down—but for me, the fear hit different. I’d already survived death once. Now, every cough felt personal. From toilet paper panic to Zoom therapy, backyard wine nights to a Facebook fundraiser in Chennai, this episode captures the strange, heavy, sometimes absurd reality of living through 2020 as a high-risk cardiac patient. Survival wasn’t heroic. It was just… muscle memory.
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    14 分
  • Episode 17: Survival Mode

    Episode 17: Survival Mode
    2025/08/18
    Fresh out of cardiac arrest and still reeking of antiseptic, I told my boss I only needed two weeks off. Why? Because fear, money, and ego make a hell of a combo. In this episode, I talk about rushing back to work, learning to breathe again (literally), descending eight flights of stairs in a Seattle fire drill with an ICD in my chest, and picking up the saxophone like it was going to save my life. Then—just as things were stabilizing—2020 showed up. The pandemic didn’t just pause the world. It collided with my fragile recovery.If you’ve ever survived something—and had to pretend you were fine—this one’s for you.
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    13 分
  • Episode 16: The Wand Test

    Episode 16: The Wand Test
    2025/08/17
    Fresh out of surgery, I walk into my electrophysiologist’s office — the same guy who just wired my heart to a machine. What follows is part science lesson, part tech demo, and part existential crisis. From “plumbing vs. wiring” to watching my heart get remotely controlled by a wand, this episode dives into the absurd, miraculous world of cardiac engineering — and what it means to live with a literal power source in your chest.
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    10 分
  • Episode 15: Homecoming with Upgrades

    Episode 15: Homecoming with Upgrades
    2025/08/16
    Back home after cardiac arrest—with CPR bruises, pneumonia, and a $50K shock device in my chest. My dog barely noticed. My family tried to keep things normal. I felt anything but. This episode covers the first painful, disorienting, and darkly funny week of recovery—when survival didn’t feel like victory.
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    12 分
  • Episode 14: Spark Plug

    Episode 14: Spark Plug
    2025/07/21
    Fresh out of cardiac arrest, I wake up to meet a new kind of heart specialist—the electrician. What follows is part absurd, part profound: a blur of drugs, Easter timing, and my family scrambling to choose which implantable defibrillator will literally keep me alive. Between morphine buttons, misplaced humor, and quiet faith, I find myself upgraded—part man, part machine. A story about survival, surrender, and the strange comfort of wearing my own spark plug.
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    12 分
  • Episode 13: Strike Two

    Episode 13: Strike Two
    2025/07/22
    In the middle of a speech contest, my heart decided to drop the mic — literally. This episode picks up from that collapse: the ambulance ride I don’t remember, my wife’s panic, the déjà vu of returning to the same hospital, and the surreal moment I learned the difference between a heart attack and cardiac arrest. Equal parts chaos, dark humor, and gratitude, Strike Two is a story about dying (again), surviving (again), and ruining a doctor’s pizza night in the process.
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    12 分