This episode includes discussion of childhood trauma, domestic abuse, and loss. Please listen with care.

In this deeply personal episode, Aliceanne shares the story of her life — from a fast birth in a snowstorm and a rebellious adolescence to her years as a mother, partner, psychologist, and seeker. Through love, loss, and awakening, she explores what it means to become whole again after profound fragmentation. This conversation is about the long journey of remembering who we are — and what we hold sacred when everything else falls away.

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00:00 – Opening • Arrival

Welcome to Remembering You — a space for slowing down, seeing again, and gathering the parts of ourselves the world asked us to forget.

00:37 – Introducing Aliceanne

Ryan invites Aliceanne to share more than a thumbnail sketch — to step into the fullness of her story.

01:56 – A Fast Beginning

Born in a snowstorm in rural Iowa — almost in the backseat of a Volkswagen Rabbit.

04:03 – Family Roots and Early Lessons

Growing up with hardworking, self-sufficient parents — learning how to fix, bake, and build. The gifts and tensions of a blue-collar childhood.

05:32 – Walking on Eggshells

Life at home with a strict mother and quiet father; learning to read emotional weather before language itself.

08:03 – A Forest of Family

Huge Catholic families, small-town life, cousins everywhere, and a safe haven in Grandma’s house.

11:30 – Church, Control, and Spiritual Wounds

Growing up Catholic: fear, punishment, and confusion. The early roots of spiritual trauma — and the eventual rejection of religion.

15:04 – The Fall

A three-year-old’s curiosity meets a construction site — a traumatic brain injury that shaped a lifelong relationship to safety, the body, and dissociation.

23:03 – Brother and Protector

Bonding with her younger brother Curtis, a joyful and mischievous sidekick — and the one she felt called to protect.

28:25 – Safe Places

Finding sanctuary in trees, books, and journals — early glimpses of nature as teacher and mirror.

32:00 – Adolescence and Rebellion

Parents’ divorce, early independence, and rebellion as survival. The pull between danger, belonging, and freedom.

38:00 – Trouble and Resilience

Probation, youth shelters, and a pivotal question from a counselor: “What do you want?” — the first invitation to agency.

43:00 – A New Direction

Choosing a path forward, finishing school early, and the beginning of healing the inner rebel.

45:00 – College and Awakening Curiosity

Curiosity about psychology, the mind, and meaning — the spark that would later become her vocation.

52:00 – Love and the Storm

Falling for Mark — passion, control, and abuse. The cycle of leaving and returning. The birth of Bianca and the moment of resolve.

59:00 – Coming Home

Leaving the abusive relationship, returning to Iowa, and rebuilding life with her daughter and her mother.

01:00:35 – Caring and Cancer

Her mother’s illness becomes a bridge — healing an old wound between them through caregiving and shared purpose.

01:05:00 – A New Chapter

Rediscovering psychology, running marathons, raising Bianca, and returning to school.

01:08:00 – Love and Relocation

Meeting Zach, building a life together, and the moves that followed — Pennsylvania then Texas.

01:20:00 – Bianca’s Diagnosis

A devastating genetic discovery: neurofibromatosis type II. The long years of medical battles, and maternal strength.

01:47:00 – Community and Consciousness

Authentic Relating, intentional community, and the spiritual reawakening that came through connection, psychedelics, and nature.

01:55:00 – Bianca’s Final Days

Her daughter’s grace, courage, and wisdom at the end of life — a mother’s heartbreak and reverence.

02:02:30 – Love Beyond Death

Reflections on grief, surrender, and the sacred ordinariness of loss.

02:05:00 – Closing

Ryan and Aliceanne share a quiet moment of gratitude. The story pauses here, but the remembering continues.